Our existence is freaking me out

2022.01.24 08:27 Daen1337 Our existence is freaking me out

Over the past few weeks I went too deep. Into philosophy and those fundamental questions why anything even exists, why we are here and so on.
Now it's freaking me out and I keep thinking about those things. But they do not benefit my mental health 😂 It's rather causing anxiety.
Anyone else dealt with this? Should I just stop thinking about it, because you literally can't answer that, or confront my fears? It's all a question of how I react to this right ? Why would I be afraid of the unknown? My mind is really trying hard to attempt this with logic, but I won't find a solution to it, I'd rather have to accept that I can't know.
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2022.01.24 08:27 TAcheems Harboring Anger/Guilt, Boiling Over (cw: mention of SA + SH/suicide)

It's currently 4 AM and I can't sleep, so forgive me for any punctuation or grammar mistakes. On mobile as well.
To preface, I (25f) love my family. They are the most important thing to me. I grew up as the middle child with my two siblings and my single mother. The day I was born my father told my mother he wanted nothing to do with me or my brother and walked out. However, he was still "present" to an extent. My sister was born with a different father who was better than mine in terms of supporting her, but still very absent in her life.
My mother is the epitome of a parent. She busted her ass to take care of us. She was diagnosed with stage 4 terminal brain cancer going on 5 years now and she's still kicking ass. It was the worst time of my life but it strengthened our relationships tenfold. Needless to say I'm very close with my immediate family. Both my brother and my sister have grown to be wonderful adults.
Childhood was difficult. My sister is functioning autistic, but was uncontrollable in her youth. She struggled a lot in her formative years. Her sensory issues caused many behavioral struggles. She would physically run away at school when overstimulated and couldn't pick up on social cues of what is right/wrong.
My brother is one of the largest influences in my life and spent most of his childhood with undiagnosed ADHD and OCD. He was the "problem child"; couldn't pay attention in school, goofed off, got in trouble constantly. This continued until he graduated high school. My teachers would see my last name and ask if I was related to my brother with horror on their faces, worried I might cause the same issues.
However, I was the exact opposite. From a very young age I watched my mom struggle with my brother and my sister. I remember watching her break down many times, trying to juggle getting through each month to pay the bills as well as handling my siblings and their different struggles and I hated seeing her like that. I didn't want to cause my mom any additional stress, so I took on the role of the backseat "gifted" child.
With that came...All of the responsibility and none of the attention. I kept my head low and helped where I could. I suppressed a lot of my own stress even past adulthood for the sake of my family. I did fantastic in school and was never disciplined. I always listened and did what I was told. I stayed in the background and didn't cause problems. I was the mom when mom wasn't around. I took care of my siblings and forfeited a great portion of my childhood to do so. I relied on myself for basically everything.
Now that I'm an adult, I've realized how negatively this affected me. I love my family, but I can't help but be so angry with how I was treated. I never felt important like my siblings. I missed out on so many things that a child should experience because I was so focused on helping take care of my brother and my sister. I have always felt undeserving of love or attention because they needed it more, which has carried over into my adult life.
When I was 13-14 I was in a very abusive first relationship. It was online (silly, I know) but my mom was very supportive. He ended up being extremely controlling and emotionally abusive, constantly suspicious of me and I ended up losing all of my friends at school because he didn't want me interacting with other guys. He told me what to wear, who I could talk to, where I could go, and dictated every second of my life. He caused me to develop an eating disorder. I was miserable and scared but I thought that it was normal because I didn't know different. Nobody knew because I hid it so well. He even accused me of sleeping with my sister's father and turned me against my family. I became extremely detached from my family.
My mom tried hard to make me happy. She saw me pretend our relationship was healthy and arranged for us to see each other multiple times. I ended up being sexually and physically assaulted, but I still hid it. It wasn't until I was so emotionally exhausted I couldn't hide it anymore. My relationship with my mom was extremely tense so she started going behind my back and checking my phone/PC. She discovered all of the texts of him threatening to kill me and it all fell apart. I was immediately placed with a therapist and have been seeing him ever since, still to this day.
I just can't help but feel angry. Not at my siblings, or my mom, but my situation. I have so many issues as an adult. I became extremely burnt out. My mental health plummeted as I got older and was diagnosed with PTSD and major depressive disorder with generalized anxiety disorder. I'm not proud of anything I've done in life. I self harm, and I've been suicidal for a very long time.
I have a passion for video games. I liked them since I was really little and would spend a lot of my time drawing characters I found cool. I grew up playing different consoles and essentially devoted my time to my PC games during my relationship because I was so alone. I went to school and graduated with a degree in game development to become a concept artist, I'm getting married, but it all feels worthless. I feel worthless.
My siblings are thriving. My brother is an insanely talented musician and my sister kicks ass at anything she puts her mind to. As far as I'm aware they're extremely happy. I can't help but wonder where I would be if I was shown the same attention in my development years. I have so much anger for how I grew up, but that comes with guilt. My siblings couldn't help it and my mom tried her absolute hardest, but fuck, I just felt and still feel completely on the sidelines. I'm the black sheep. Never celebrated for my accomplishments then and even now, even from my extended family. My entire extended family boasted about my cousin's graduation with a criminology degree. Anyone who could make it went to her ceremony. There was a massive party. Online posts about how proud they all were. Nobody was aware I graduated college until ~6 months after, and there was nothing.
I'm just so angry with how things all ended up. I'm so angry for growing up in the background and still being there. I'm so happy for my siblings, but I wish I knew how I could have ended up if things had been different. I wish I received the same amount of love and praise. I wish I felt deserving of good things in life.
I'm just boiling over with anger and guilt.
tl;dr was forced into the gifted, responsible child role from a young age and missed out on so much, dealing with the repercussions as an adult
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